labour day isnt nice.
boo. i improved for overall CA but i doubt tt's enough. o level is like. next year. plus, i havent really been on track lately. emath test is next thrusday
and i havent started studying. i died so badly for a math quiz. got like. 1/15? die. honestly, i didnt study. it totally slipped my mind.
and i failed chem. sighs. i seriously fail. i havent passed any test in chem before, even though there was only 2. sighs.
hmm, and i think my ss and lit dropped.
my physics too. dropped by3 marks.

SHE'S LEAVING ON 11TH MAY! YAYY! GOOD BYEE!! countdown: 10 days left!
ok. random. you know wad. amazingly, all the subjects she teach, did really well. i hit my personal target for both te subjects she teach. even though i hate her like anything. my. i havent hated anyone until such a state before! gosh. lol.
i hear chris daughtry!!! XD nicenicenice.


i hate all this. this fale smile i can never get rid of.the fake laughter, fake everything. im so sick and tired of everything. all the enthusiam is like. gone. going to school has become a chore, and i feel everything slipping apart. all that lies, all that masks. the fact that everyone just acts as if nothing happened. can violence solve anything? anything at all? it just makes everything worse. wasnt everything fine before? why must you make everything change so much. you make everyone hurt so badly. i can hate you so much. i want to hate you so much. can force do anything? have respect will you? you restrict so much just cz you've had them before, and its all about you. its really unfair. can i pleasee hate you?

labour day isnt nice.
boo. i improved for overall CA but i doubt tt's enough. o level is like. next year. plus, i havent really been on track lately. emath test is next thrusday
and i havent started studying. i died so badly for a math quiz. got like. 1/15? die. honestly, i didnt study. it totally slipped my mind.
and i failed chem. sighs. i seriously fail. i havent passed any test in chem before, even though there was only 2. sighs.
hmm, and i think my ss and lit dropped.
my physics too. dropped by3 marks.

SHE'S LEAVING ON 11TH MAY! YAYY! GOOD BYEE!! countdown: 10 days left!
ok. random. you know wad. amazingly, all the subjects she teach, did really well. i hit my personal target for both te subjects she teach. even though i hate her like anything. my. i havent hated anyone until such a state before! gosh. lol.
i hear chris daughtry!!! XD nicenicenice.

today's geog trip was super fun.
went to orchard by ourselves and the 35 mins were super funny. shu was taking pics of us, so we started taking pics of them. and divya was super funny. use her file to cover her face. lol. thenthenthen. we went to mos burger to eat lunch. then bought all the xtra stuff to be illegal. heh^^
THEN! i was sabo-ed in the cinema! meano! suddenly ask someone to come and sit beside me jz cos i had an empty seat beside me. THANK YOU to tt other person who saved me. i was practically on the floor to prevent being seen. lol. so funny.
we went for nice icecream after tt. whee. never regretted that. soo nice. however "unenvironmentally friendly" it is. heh^^
then, i decided to go home.
i realise, at ps, 171 ALWAYS comes before my bus. sighs. so i always have to say byebye to my friends. =(
haha.
then the most amzing thing happened.
i met my sis on the bus. haha. (i think it sounds really lame cos everyone can meet their whoever on the bus, but i can never meet ppl on the bus, especially my sis)
haha. then i heard the story. haha. so funny la. haha.
ok then nothing more.

today was super fun. haha. whee. man. funfunfun. haha.
im mad.
and i was sabo-ed.
andand i want ice blended mocha from starbucks
andandand i wanna watch spiderman 3 (not with mr seow thank you)
andand.. haha! nothing else

nice dinner was nice!
and i bathed 3 times today. someone tell me wad's wrong.
i slept so much today. and i wanna sleep again! lol.
zzz
today, was. boring.
kind of.
feels so weird being super free.
dunno wad to do.
lol. and i feel bad cz i havent done any work today.
and yesterday.
ohoh! stayed in school yesterday until 7 doing physics corrections. and our dear dear form teacher msged while teaching us! lol! tsktsk.
hmms. nothing else.
i wanna sleep
i feel like a pig

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
no I won't give in

Keep holdin' on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just, stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say (nothin' you can say)
Nothing you can do (nothin' you can do)
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend

Keep holdin' on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just, stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through

We'll make it through

Hear me when I say
When I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change
Nothing's gonna change trust in me
Whatever's meant to be
Will work out perfectly

Keep holdin' on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

Keep holdin' on
Keep holdin' on
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could say
nothin you could do
nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through


Keep Holding On- Avril Lavigne
random. lol. i like this song.

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I抳e been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
i'm fine baby, how are you??
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

Wanna Go Home- Micheal Buble.
lol. i like this song too. nicenicenice.
ppl who have this song, sendsendsend!!
XD

i tell you.
my com has problem. issues! it opened i think up to 100 windows! i kept closing and closing. sighs. i had a long blog post! but it got closed too. haha.
hmm. this blog is stale. lol.
anyways, the thai students came today. whee. it was.. pretty fun. haha. other than the language barrier , it was kinda fun!=) haha. so sad i was having test just now. couldnt join them for phtotaking. haha. oh wells.
waited half an hour to see ms tan and she says 3 sentences to tell us some stuff about POTC. and guess wad. i didnt need to know cz i already knew. -.-!!! haha. oh wells.
i wanna fall sick and dun come to school! so tired. i think i will fall sick soon. my bro's sick. and he sleeps in the same room. lol. good luck to me! XD
see. this is short. and i forgot i wad i wanted to say yesterday. sheesh.
i see a hammer. and nails. i feel like hammering something. can i hammer you?

<insecurity feelings are always there. somehow, this feeling came back. i hate this feeling. i dun even feel like going home. i dun feel like doing anything. i just wanna sleep. sleep thru eveything. and anything. sleep and wake up to do nothing. (take sleeping pills and commit suicide) sighs. i wanna stay in bed and just stone. i wanna just submerge myself in something and never come out of it.

yesterday.
stayed in school until like 6 watching NgLP's VCDs. haha. it was so nice and addictive. haha. it was kinda like a marathon. havent watched tv continuously for so long already. lol. it was super fun!! =) haha. thanks to everyone who was there and lipin's nicenice VCD. haha. i shall wait until the waiting list gets over then i borrow and watch. haha. better still. i borrow from the 1st volume onwards! ^^
lol.
before that, i looked for mrs Seetoh for the poster, and too see if she ACCEPTED IT. sadly, no. sighs. i dun wanna redo again.. *whines* this is so annoying. i did it a million times. gahh. and Ms Kon's back. i feel like having a meeting again. its so cool to sit in the HOD room like tt. you feel so professional. lols.
I AM PISSED OFF AT BOTAK LIM. SHE SOOOO ANNOYING. I TELL YOU.
today. went to kap for nice lunch and did lit. haha. and we were on a mission! but,
MISSION UNACCOMPLISHED! lol. and i finally did the prefect's elections too. lol.

Goodbye to you my trusted friend
We've known each other since we were nine or ten
Together we climbed hills and trees
Learned of love and A B C's
Skinned our hearts and skinned our knees.

Goodbye my friend it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
Pretty girls are everywhere
Think of me and I'll be there

We had joy we had fun
We had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons
Out of time......

Goodbye Papa please pray for me
I was the black sheep of the family
You tried to teach me right from wrong
Too much wine and too much song
Wonder how I got along.

Goodbye Papa its hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
Little children everywhere
When you see them I'll be there.

We had joy we had fun
We had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons
Have all gone.

We had joy we had fun
We had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons
Have all gone.

Goodbye Michelle my little one
You gave me love and helped me find the sun
And every time that I was down
You would always come around
And get my feet back on the ground.

Goodbye Michelle it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
With the flowers everywhere
I wish that we could both be there

We had joy we had fun
We had seasons in the sun
But the stars we could reach
Were just starfish on the beach

We had joy we had fun
We had seasons in the sun
But the stars we could reach
Were just starfish on the beach

We had joy we had fun
We had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons
Have all gone

All our lives we had fun
We had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons
Out of time......

We had joy we had fun
We had seasons in the sun

hello! i changed my blogskin! whee. so nice. super contradicting to my URL. haha. oh wells. finally i change from the old tree. lol.

i got A for 2.4! yayy. im getting my gold for PFT! XD haha. 13.57 for 2.4! whee! i love tt timing. my best ever yet. haha. JASMINE! i am going to pace u next time! XD haha.
i passed physics! only 8 passed, and i was the 2nd last to pass. i was getting heart attack lah. i cant fail physics. i'll die. haha.

its 1 month to OBS! 1 MONTH! haha. ppl, better not get your thing now. or you'll die during OBS. haha. i wanna jump for OBS. haha. and i havent seen anyone who TRUELY wants to go for OBS. man. i doubt anyone will bother to go for the 12 day one. haha. tt's madness!

lol. im gonna select jap(lang arts) and eastern Europe for sabbaticals. but i have a strong feeling tt im going to Europe, even though i really wanna go Jap. haha. actually, there isnt anywhere else i can go.reactions of my panrets: india- NO! NEVER! , china too, OBS in malaysia- waste of time. australia- ate you get eaten by sharks! everything is off coast! not safe! NO!
so.. its only these 2 places. other than the geog trip, but i dun take geog so forget it. lol. but i wanna go for the 2 trips. they are so cool. manga, and geishas, coolio. and the Eatern Europe is someplace my family would never go. so, i am definitely putting these as my choice. i made my dada sign a pact too! he HAS to let me go to these places. heh^^
oh wells. i shall go sleep now. XD
i like my new blogskin

just a short post.
today was super interesting.
i got the trailers (thank you!)
took " THE PICTURE OF THE YEAR" photo.
played with a frog. with a ball. in the "flooded quadrange"
walked in the rain.
got drenched super badly.
had nice apple strudels.
tutor complained.
went home smelling like the rain when it was super sunny at my place.
dad asked" where did you go? why are u sunburnt?".
haha!

" i dont want her to leave. dont let her leave. she's my everything. i love her.please. dont leave"
these words which escaped from a little boy's mouth as tears dropped from his eyes. his voice displayed an array of feelings and emotions. the moment i heard these words from him, i was so touched. his innocence reflected upon his love for her. he is such a small boy to xperience such things. he is too young to be in such circumstances. he doesnt deserve it. things happens. but for it to happen on such a boy, it will destroy him. he still sees the images, and it haunts him. it pains me to see his reaction. perhaps, he mmight just forget aabout it, and never be reminded about it. but i highly doubt so.it will remain in him forever. and one day, you can be shocked at how he can retaliate one day.
the day was known to come. and when it did, it hurts everyone. every single one of them who gets involved in it. but why did it just have to come? is it of such importance?? man. i hope this doesnt get worse. if it does, i really wont know wad to do.
all i can do is pray. mann i feel so helpless.
can he not be part of this? can he not hear? not see? then he wont be able to know wad happened. then, it wont impact him so much. then he wont feel the pain.

heyy!
haha. i dun like being in the mg rocs commitee. rushrushrush everything. i have to get the thing done by MONDAY. gosh. i cant even download the trailer cz i dunno where to download from. sighs. and their gonna show it on monday. ahhhh. im gonna die. and i havent even heard from jaime. mrs seetoh is so gonna kill us. i mean like. i can view it online, but i jz cant download it. then how am i suppose to show it if its from the internet? then how to edit and stuff? dieeee.

heyy! i miss the com. haha. havent been online for 2 days. haha. hmm. swim meet today. haha. did crowd control. oh so cool. its called stand still and look dumb! lol. haha
my toe is super painful. the nail's coming off. sighs. i wanna wear sliipers to school tmr .. *whines* haha. i think i was being super whiney today. haha. sorry to the ppl who tolerated with me! XD
hmm. i was super tired by the time the meeting ended. its like. all the energy zapped. blehh.
dun feel like going to school tmr. im gnna die for amath test. DIEEE. i need a math and amath tuitor. haha.
random!
zzz.... i shall go study a math. make SURE i pass.

heyy! went for the walk today and was super fun. ahaha. sang rubbish songs, and waiting for reflection point 2 to come faster. haha. *hinthint*
we figured that the walk was 4.3km, and there was 4 points, then it would have marked every km or something lah. then when we reached point 3 or 4, this BB boy was telling us: "halfway more, halfway more" haha. we were like. wad the heckkk.. haha. ate lipin's marshmellows! haha. she couldnt even finish it lah. i think i ate the most. haha. then after that, went to The Glass House for fish n co. oh mann. so regret buying the fish and chips. I WANTED THE CAESER SALAD.. *whines* sighs. haha. but it was fun. XD haha. then there was this weird guy talking to space? i kinda pitied that guy. haha. oh wells. i shall go do hist now. byebye! XD

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colours of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God


Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
you are amazing God

haha, random. just thought this song was nice. XD

heyy! i feel like changing blogskin. haha. good friday is super boring. lol. woke up at 9 cz i couldnt sleep anymore. so dumb. i was super tired the whole week and cant sleep past 8 hours. so uselss. hahaha. hmm. i shall study a math and physics today. then tmr go for methodist walk! whee. so cool. i think i might meet like. 2 of my chuch ppl? haha. i swam today! and realised how bad my stamina is. and had nice nice NICE steak. haha. burn the fats and replenish them again. ahaha. actually.. its not like the best of the best. but. its just nice. im just waiting for someone to bring me to The Hot Stone. XD whee. hinthint. haha.


caro: since when do you have tuitiion at 4 on fridays? haha. tried to call you.
grace (loke): yeah! i had so much fun at sabina's house! XD haha.
cheryl ong! READ THIS!! : he does not like me! for goodness sake. i repeat. HE DOES NOT! haha. it was kinda funny though.

i feel stone. ppl aregetting on my nerves everywhere. sighs. annoyed. maybe czi care for them too much? gahh. annoying. its not jz in school. soomehow ppl are annoying me off eerywhere. i think its really just me. gahh. i dun feel like going church tmr. i shall go bowling or swimming insteaad. and eat sushi. oh. i put on weight! -.- but i grew taller too. even though im still very short(tiffany is taller than me! =(
haha. oh wells. there is a very very funny joke! hahahhaa.
oh wells. i shall stop bloggiing. havent been on the com for 2 days. XD

I read a note my grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat and he showed it once to me
He said boy you might not understand
But a long, long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
But I love your grandma so

We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter
And this is what it said

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then ‘til I see you again
I'll be loving you, love me

I read those words just hours before my grandma past away
In the door way of a church
Where me and grandpa stopped to pray
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my 15 years
But as he said these words to her
His eyes filled up with tears

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then ‘til I see you again
I'll be loving you, love me
Between now and then ‘til I see you again
I'll be loving you, love me


omg. i lovelovelove this song so much! XD
haha! yayy, haha. i got dao-ed today. super mean la. mean ppl. sighs. and she still want pics.
sighs. bully me! haha.
im like bullying ppl and getting bullied at the same time. lol!

yesterday didnt feel like a saturday at all. its like. rush rush rush. it was enrlment parade this morning. and gosh. when we did our music drill and format, it was so fun! i loved it. before that, i was telling caro: wad if later they want something new then ask us to do format too? then, the news came in. "later do format and then music drill." HAHA! jieyi is SO smart. lol. hahaa. its like doing your thing for the last time. we wont be doing the music drill and the format ever aagain. like. unless we get invited to do it, which is totally impossible. sighs. im gonna miss everyone in the contingent. [i just got sam emo again] lol. i wanna do it again!
anyways. i got thrown into the pool 6 times. all by the dear dear seniors. the first time i ever got dunked into the pool. grace was like"HEY you guys wanna dunk jie into the pool?" then everybody shouted YESS! omg. i was literally screaming noo all the way la. dragging myself and stuff. they LIFTED me up and threw me into the pool. hahahaha. thank goodness i had 3 sets of clothes. (dun ask) haha. it was super funny. then i was trying to push kelly into the pool then i got her in, andd someone pushed me in too. lol. super funny! had so much fun. then ran in the rain back to school from kap. aha. I WANT SUSHI! lol. sushi is nice<3 haha.
then DANCEDANCE com! yes i can feel the heat! lol. great job sec4s! lol. great job man. i sat beside a guy from AC(IB) haha. i think? the whole group was either AC or AC(IB) haha. ohw ells. DAO! he was super dao. but someone said he was cute. ahha! oh wells. dun think so. mean person. haha! owells.
church was .. as per normal today. haha. now im going grandma;s house byebye!